Written By: Nikki Threatt
COVID-19, Coronavirus, Quarantine…….No matter what you call it it’s our reality right now.
I am going to get really raw, and a little out of my comfort zone, but here goes. How are you feeling? It’s been ten weeks at this point for my family here in Maryland, and I think this past week was the hardest. I have never struggled with mental health or depression; however, I have felt really unfulfilled, unsatisfied with life, and generally feeling down. Don’t get me wrong, I love my kids and my husband, but I just really got into a funk and felt blah. After about two days, I decided I needed to figure out why. I came to the conclusion that it was this quarantine.
Being home and not seeing anyone outside of my family for ten weeks aside from the grocery store was getting to me. The devil has used the boredom to sneak in and plant these thoughts in my head. The worst part? I LET HIM DO IT!!!! Have any of you been here? If not, that is amazing, but it happened to me, and it sucked. So I started reading my Bible, but nothing was speaking to me because the devil was still in my head. I prayed that God would help me, that He would take the devil’s control away and speak to me. Then I hit up Google on my phone, and the first verse that popped up on my random search was 2 Corinthians 12:9-10:
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why for Christ’s sake, I delight in the weakness, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
That verse had so much power over me at that moment and it’s what I needed. Did I instantly feel better and move on? No, y’all I am human! But with time, consistently praying for the Lord to heal my thoughts and help me get back to myself, and reading more of my Bible did make me feel better. If you are feeling dragged down, stuck in your own headspace while you are home, turn to God, not social media, or things of this world. God is waiting for you to ask Him for help. He is willing and waiting.
Also, I want to add that it’s okay to feel stuck and bored, and OVER all of this stuff going on! I think most of us do. The first eight weeks I was like “cool family time.” Now I am over homeschool, staying home, not BBQ’ing, etc. So trust me, if you feel the way I did, you are not alone!
Written By: Nikki Threatt